Waste no time....
I just bought a book at B&N recently titled 20 Something, 20 Everything....
"How the hell did you come across this book?" I know that's what you're thinking right now...Well. I strongly believe that for the last few months my heart has been searching for something.... an unknown variable, per se. I wanted to find that something to restore my hearts' wholeness. But how do I fill that void when I have no idea what my heart is searching FOR...
or what my heart has been missing?
That's when I slowly realized... my heart is searching for answers. ANSWERS. Nothing in particular. Just answers. Answers to all of lifes questions. I had no one to talk to about this odd yearning, because if I searched for answers from the type of people I'm surrounded by.....I would instantly have people shoving me into church, force feeding me scripture, and attacking me with tacky phrases like...(In my best Joel Osteen Voice) "You just need Jesus.....he is the only thing that can fill your void."
Well sure....fine. That's such an easy answer. Any time you'd LOVE to give me a "how to fill that void with Jesus, PLAYBOOK"....that would be great. So yeah, I haven't been "on top" of my relationship with Christ, but quite frankly, the reason I stopped....is because I wasn't finding answers.
Hence when this amazing book comes into play. Ah.... it's so refreshing. Not only does it make me think about who I am and where I stand in life right now, but it makes me reflect on those life experiences that have led me to where I am today. So far I have broken down my childhood and acknowledged the things that have positively and negatively affected me. Already I am asking myself questions like:
Who am I?
What do I want?
and, How do I get what I want?
They seem like easy questions, but I challenge you to actually answer them. And to be honest with yourself.
Moral of my story thus far: You can't find answers through others. The way you find answers is throught the rigorous process of seeking within yourself. Digging deep, and figuring out WHO you ARE. What you WANT. And how you're going to get it. I can tell you right now... it hasn't been easy. And it won't be.
Nothing in this world that is worth having, comes easy... right?
